Home is me, home is me, home is me. Remember this. Reading the last post as a witness to my own innocence and purity of love hits a nerve that plunges me into deep sadness, if only for a moment. Seeing the Gowri with nothing but love to give, to seal all the cracks, toContinue reading “R- efresh”
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Defiant
I have been so scared to open my heart here again since the safe space I created for myself did not exist in my mind for a long while. I know that there is only one way back: to write. In 2020 I’ve written the most I’ve ever written in my life. Privately. In journalsContinue reading “Defiant”
Joy
Here is a list of things that have been bringing me absolute joy as of late. Absolutely perfect evenings in England; cloaked in liquid sunshine, like honey trickling through leafy canopies, saturating the air with warmth. Feeling really stressed and pent up, then going for a run (preferably on one such aforementioned evening) and experiencingContinue reading “Joy”
Tropical storm
Admittedly I can’t complain about the surroundings. In a world that seems to be engulfed by the mass hysteria of covid, I find myself a far cry away in the south coast of Sri Lanka where subdued solemnity of the outbreak still rings in the air, though with less chaos and more calculus. I’ve hadContinue reading “Tropical storm”
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I miss you Berlin. I miss each hot, sweet sip of your fresh liberation. I miss the sweat of the U-bahn pulling into the platform. I miss the effortless sex appeal of loose clothes, the glimpse of a tattoo just above your elbow. The way you make my spine tingle; my juices rush. I missContinue reading “</3”
lol I don’t even have a title
Hi everyone. I say everyone as if i have a real crew of people agonising over the next time i write something lol It’s been a real minute. Lately I’ve really been refraining from writing anything on here, lowkey subconsciously because I’ve been more present, less in permanent freaking pain and trying to actively consumeContinue reading “lol I don’t even have a title”
Raw
Written July 2018 and published April 2019 on pure whim because pain is a real thing You know. One day I’m gonna be too much and you might leave me. I think that every time I tell you about these breakdowns. Before- I was so paralysed with fear that I couldn’t even tell you aboutContinue reading “Raw “
On Pain.
Written April 2016 and published 3 years on 48 hours. Phase 2. The vulnerability is tearing me apart. This depth of feeling is not something I have experienced with this level of intensity in years. I forgot how this felt. I forgot the feeling of falling, with all its fear and helplessness, where you look aroundContinue reading “On Pain.”
2018 wrap
I have drafted so many posts in the last few months and never quite have managed to get round to actually finishing or publishing them. (On the contrary I have spent so much time journalling solo, working on myself, writing for my betterment etc). So I’m incorporating mad speed right now to just get somethingContinue reading “2018 wrap”
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One day love will find its way through all the cracks and fill them up so like cement, they harden and what were holes is now whole. ❤ Accidentally posted this on here. For more: www.gowrispoetry.wordpress.com